October 6, 2013 Clair Marie 0Comment

No this is not a meaning of life post, why are we here, what is our purpose blah blah blah. This is a celebration, of who we are and who we want to become. Following our truth, figuring out what really moves us, what motivates us, what inspires us. Those who stay true to themselves lead a more fulfilled life. So what is it that we have become? 

I just recently turned 25 and throughout the celebration of another successful year of life and welcoming the next year, I was faced with the question (one which I posed to myself) Who have I become? Am I the person I thought I was going to be? The short answer is NO.

Me choking my sister out at 8 and BASE jumping in Switzerland at 24
Me choking my sister out at 8 and BASE jumping in Switzerland at 24

I could not have imagined, when I was younger, that I would be where I am today. 25 was always the age that I dreamt about. I always thought “when I am 25 I will…” the list was endless, my goals huge and my ideas were so incredibly far off from where I ended up today. For that I am eternally grateful! I allowed some interesting turning points in my life to lead the way to where I am today. Frankly I am very pleased. In all honesty tho I’ve had a rough several years. Relationships, career, life, friends. All of which were shook up, changed, ended. I was faced with massive loss paired with incredible gain… Oh the roller coaster of life. And some how I thought that maybe just maybe on the day my age changed into that of my dreams, all my shit would work itself out, that magically I would have the power of a goddess to confront any situation, figure out all my problems and BAM… Idealistic life… Now obviously I didn’t actually believe this was true. As much as I might have hoped, I knew that there is no real answer. There is no quick fix to all the uncomfortable or undesirable aspects of life. It is all about attitude. But sometimes those who can’t do teach… At which point I was faced with taking complete responsibility of my life, my outcome but most of all my happiness. Because lets face it, there is no one out there who is capable of providing that for us but ourselves!! It can be a daunting task at times!

Just a few short days after my birthday I got some crushing news that a friend had died and the cause is still under investigation. The death was completely unrelated to any of the extreme sports I participate in. These types of passings are the hardest for me to comprehend. How someone so full of life, so motivated and driven who was also very careful about the sports he participated in could all the sudden no longer be gracing this planet with his presence. At 34 years old he is survived by his wife and two young sons. He had the most contagious positive attitude and was always ready for the next adventure! The last communication I had with him was a few weeks prior when I was in CA traveling. He told me he wanted to meet up and ask me a question but unfortunately I wasn’t in his area any more. I told him my next trip to Tahoe was planned for the winter, and the last message he sent me said “Would love to have seen you. It has been ages. My questions can wait until winter. Anyways, you always inspire. Love seeing glimpses of the unique and exciting life you are leading” Not knowing his question, not having an answer all just add to the sinking feeling of loss I know all to well. 

Through all of this I have been inundated by uplifting and life changing questions proving that there is no getting comfortable! Its time to shake it up again. Two of the quotes which have a lasting impact on me I want to share with you.

“Never Waste a Day” was written to me by Tahoe Legend Todd Offenbacher who was one of the closest buddies with our mutual deceased friend. 

The second was posted by his sister just days before his untimely death “We’re all going to die. We don’t get much say over how or when. But we do get to decide how to live, so do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide! Breathe in….breathe out…and decide.”

So I ask you. What have you become? Who are you? Are you who you want to be, are you doing what you want and need to be doing? If not, now is the only time you have to change that, take everything one step and one day at a time. No task is too hard, no dream is too big. If you don’t start today then its just one more day it will take to accomplish what you want! 

Here is to a Legend who was lost and here is to the making of many more in is footsteps!! Never waste a day! 

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