What Drives My Desire To Inspire
This is a question I have been asked on a continuous basis along with the classic ‘doesn’t it take away from the fun of what you do?’ For me the answer is much more in-depth than just a yes or no answer. The background of what I do and my desires stems from a very early age.
As a kid I grew up in a very small town, throughout my upbringing I was sheltered from what most would classify as ‘normal life’. This had its pros and cons as most anything does. However one thing that was lacking was the presence of a role model in my life. Someone I could look at and say “They did what they were passionate about and so can I” and “anything is possible” I had a deep desire to be my own person and to succeed, but at the same time I did so in a very headstrong way because I knew that if I didn’t do it, no one would do it for me! This caused its own struggles with people seeing my drive and trying to detour me from following my passions. I was told I was too young for many of the sports I participated in, I was told that being a female was a limiting factor in my abilities. All of these harsh judgements and limitations people placed on me only increased my driving force and propelled me in a direction to not only accomplish my dreams but to prove the naysayers wrong!
I had the drive to succeed no matter the cost and I adopted the fairly colorful motto of HIDGAF (Honestly I Don’t Give A Fuck) as a shield to those who went out of their way to not just judge me but try to stop me. Over the past 15 years there have been many tears and trying times. Times when I believed what people said about me and other times where I allowed my temper to get the best of me. I remember sitting alone on many occasions knowing the path I was on was the right one for me and crying to myself, thinking and wondering why people were so resistant to my success and my drive.
Through all of my experiences in all of my sports I decided to be the person whom I never had access to. A support, an inspiration. I had the drive to continue but many others out there have such extreme outside influences they need someone to look up to, someone who inspires them to hold their dreams near to their heart and to stop at nothing to accomplish it regardless of their outside circumstances.
Inspiring women through my actions is just one of my many driving forces and it adds to fun of my participation. When I make a jump it is for me and my love for it, but then the hopes of that jump catching the attention of someone who needs an inspiration in that moment to do something great with their life as well. If I inspire even a hand full of people to follow their passion I would consider my efforts a success but I aim much higher than just that.